25 Ekim 2010 Pazartesi

the tale of urnyras jael, part XIII: the queen and alùn.

Urnyras Jael made it to Northern Kith'lath in three weeks. She took the route directly from the borders of Southern Orbh Forest. She has never been closer to this ill-reputed forest. She has heard the echoes; deep, sorrowful mournings, she has felt the heavy atmosphere of it - even from the other side of its borders. Some wisemen spoke, she remembered, that 'it is a forest, alive by itself and seperately; possessing a collective spirit apart from the spirits of its trees. Delusional, maddening but beautiful. Beautifully destructive, uncomfortably tempting.' Even after a week passing by the Forest, she was sure to hear sounds. Echoes of the Past, just like in Galdwin. Mourns, inevitably making her remember her sister. It was disturbing, nonetheless.

On her way up north, she has passed by the biggest city in Echiott, Orbh City, at nighttime. She has seen the lights of it and the traces of battles of locals and pioneer onthox forces at the outskirts of the city atop Westhill Heights, while passing towards Southern Kith'lath. She has never been to Orbh. She was aware the Westhill Heights were probably very dangerous to pass by, but she had to rely on her evasive skills. She could not extend the journey any longer. Luckily her journey through Southern Kith'lath and Midlands were not problematic.

...

According to the coordinates she was given, she found the forward camp at the outskirts of Calua City, a city located at the northeasternmost corner of Solian mainland.
"Blessings upon you," she spoke to the guardians at the entrance, in fyllian. "Urnyras Jael, I have arrived to address the Bannerlord. I am of the Intelligence Corps, rode all the way from Midland Ossax."
"Urnyras Jael, your arrival brought us sparkles of hope," one of the guardians spoke, as Urnyras Jael jumped down from Bavien with a smile. "The Bannerlord is at his garrison, not far from here. Let me get the horse - that is a mustang, actually, no?"
"Indeed," Urnyras Jael said, proudly. "One of the best."
"I'll feed her," the guard said. "Don't you worry. She'll be at the stables."
"I appreciate," Urnyras Jael said.
"I'll show you the way," said the other guard, and started to walk slowly after beckoning her over.
After a short walk, they arrived in front of a (recently constructed, as far as she could figure) wooden building. Guard nodded to Urnyras Jael, and she thanked him before he left.
She slowly walked inside, greeting the guardians in front of the building with her fyllian salute.

...

Building looked much bigger than it looked outside - somehow, everything seemed to be a bit oversized. The tables, paintings hung on the wall, chairs, sofa, decorative weapons, everything. It was much different than a Echiotthian understanding of decoration. It looked more tribal, more green-brown dominated. Somehow resembled the fyllian decoration, but in a more primitive way. Nonetheless, she realized such interior design would be of Wundh women. She immediately recalled their tribal way of life, their worship of Marvyll Dengraìd, the Goddess of Sun and Nature. It made sense. This was the Wundhian headquarters.
This realization took around three seconds.
She noticed an elegant, strong yet old looking fylla and a woman of the same length with him, standing in front of a square table, discreetly arguing on something, pointing at scribblings and most possibly maps or reports placed on the table. When they noticed her back, she could observe them better; as they turned their faces to her. One of them was, N'yaian Bannerlord, Eoria's dear father, Krischnokh Ilinarth. As handsome, cold-blooded and wise as a fylla can look, he was standing there, smiling warmly.
"Dheinach," Krischnokh said. "Dheinach, my beloved child, welcome! I knew the King would send you here for me, Gosto be praised! Look, I want you to meet a friend, an ally, a fierce warrior - just like you are." He slowly turned towards the woman next to him.
The first word or definition that popped up in her mind when she could have a clearer view of the woman was 'awkward': She was wearing a white-green cloak covering all the way down to her ankles and her shoulders as well; it had (probably) leather shoulderpads attached carefully to her cloak. Her armor looked like it was made of a darker leather, no wonder it looked strong. Her breasts were partially covered, the chest part was connected to the leggings with four strong looking stripes at the sides. Her thigh were covered as well, but the leggings were not covering all parts of her legs. She had boots, more looked like winter-boots, hairy and cozy-looking.
She had gloves with two spikes on them each, somehow resembled an assassin's armor daggers. She had a bow hanging from her back, as well as a quiver; apparently a product of an exceptional fletcher.
She had brown hair down to her waist, ornamented with green leaves. She had hazel-green eyes, or at least that is what Urnyras Jael assumed so; because after a while, she thought they were actually brownish; it was pretty hard to tell. She had sharp facial curves, a round face and some frickles on her cheeks; the expression on her face, as it is - was not neutral but rather nervous. Urnyras Jael could easily tell - this woman, even in her happiest moment, might fail to look happy.
"Gallanae," the woman said, with an unexpectedly soothing voice. "Gallanae-mylen. I am happy to meet you, at last."
"So am I, her Majesty," Urnyras Jael said, bowing her head. "An honor to have met you eventually."
"There is a lot to talk, Dheinach," Krischnokh said. "You have to move immediately and effectively."
"I have taken a briefing back in Ossax. I suppose it is not enough, however," Urnyras Jael said. "I require specific people to aim at."
"Indeed, that you will get," Gallanae said. "Just in case you are referring to our 'confidentiality' principles, they do not apply face-to-face. We never know who might get that message we sent to Ossax, but you will get your detailed briefing here."
"That is... relieving to know, so to speak," Urnyras replied. "If I can get it right away I can get on with it."
"Very well," Gallanae said. "There is this man, within the city walls, the Bannerlord of Calua. His name is Niru. Niru Volda. A man of Guern-Vent heritage, but he was born and raised in Kith'lath. Attended to the Military Academy in Rolinbragh before he was appointed as the Council representative of Calua. Then he was assigned as the Bannerlord when the former Bannerlord died. He is well known for his seperatist ideas about Kith'lath, claiming it to deserve being a seperate Kingdom like Dytheria, Umbrys and Wundh. Apparently he was never recognized in these terms, which made him more furious. We suspect this man could be behind such uprising, taking advantage of the chaotic situation that the Empire is in."
"Well, what if he is not?" Urnyras Jael asked.
"Eh, my common sense dictates me," said Gallanae pointing at her head, "A Bannerlord would not be so silent and approving about a rebel going on against the Empire. In any case, he has to be taken here, if not killed, to be questioned. Everything will unfold if done so."
"If he is the leader of such rebellion that scattered all over Kith'lath," Urnyras Jael said, rather annoyed at the Queen being sarcastic, "How are you expecting one person to grab a Bannerlord, and a rebel leader, alive and without being spotted?"
"Well, that is exactly why we rely on you... and your 'training'," said Krischnokh. "I am sure you will succeed, you are the Successor of your Master. You are no ordinary assassin."
"Thank you, Krischnokh, but I need no flattering words," said Urnyras Jael. "I am just telling that for the sake of ensuring such mission to be completed as you ask me. I need several equipment, a map of Calua for instance, where he might be found... and connections in the city that are reliable."
"You will find Aural, at the city hall, he is a clerk. A disguised Royal Guard spy. He also works as the archivist. The code you will use to contact him is 'asking the El'nar family archives.' He will do the rest, just go along with the masquerade. Ah, and you may also encounter Alùn, a human blademaster, but I am not sure at what stage of your journey in the city he would appear to you. He is an ally, you can trust him. Be wary though, he's known to be reckless."
"Fine," Urnyras Jael said. "I'll leave as soon as I get the necessary equipment. I will see you before I leave."

...

She has had another detailed briefing with Gallanae-mylen before she left.
She has heard of Calua many times, mostly in pirate and maritime wars stories. It is known to be a filthy city, mostly a hub for thugs, criminals and outlaws. Many of the famous Solian pirates were either from here, or somehow associated with here. She couldn't help but admire the maritime victory that the Wundhian Navy won against the Caluan pirates and Kith'lath fleet.
Shortly after, merely before the sunset, she found a hiding spot near the city sewers below the eastern walls. She opened up the map, carefully observed it and tried to find a way in from the sewers, or any sort of hidden gate used for evacuation or for strategic purposes.
It, unfortunately, looked like the only subtle way in was the sewers. She sneaked in through the rusty bars of the round pipeline, carefully and silently walking towards. It stinked - significantly terrible.
The only sound was sewer rats hastily running and the waterdrops falling to the filthy sewer channel. Her steps were silent.
"Ùr," she whispered. Before her appeared a green beam of light, guiding her way.
She got a hold of her weapons, narrowing her eyes into the dark, endless pipeline. She was observing the ceiling too, for possible exits up to the city.
She saw a bright, white light. That moment, she leaned forwards to see closer, was this an exit? It didn't make sense though, it was nighttime, how come such a bright light inside this se-
She could hardly escape a flying throwing knife, dodging half a second before she would be nailed on her forehead. She whispered "Ùr-nae", then ducked. She held her breath, then whispered "Napth," a wave of blast appeared in front of her. Nothing happened, as far as she could see; her blast spell did not work.
"Do you think you can take me down with Ùrda magic? It is dangerous for a fyllian assassin to loiter in Caluan underground at times like these," a man spoke, with an irritatingly calm voice. "You must be Urnyras Jael. Good to, ehm, well, see you."
Urnyras Jael did not reply.
"You need not speak for me to find you," he said. "I won't kill you anyway."
"Who are you?" said Urnyras Jael, as emotionless as she could pretend.
"Alùn. I am sent here a couple of days ago to investigate. They told me you would come beforehand. I am sorry about the throwing knife, but anyone unable to dodge that should not be here anyway."
Urnyras Jael, still warily, revealed herself. Alùn revealed himself too - he lid the torch he was holding in his hands, walking out from the shadows. He was an eila, about the same height of Urnyras Jael - with long, brownish hair and a long beard. He was wearing a robe, and two short-swords were hanging from his belt.
"I am a Disciple too, believe it or not," he continued. "I do not work and never worked for Fyllian Corps though. After my training was done, I was back to my mother's hometown, Rolinbragh; pledged my services to Teleane Bloodline. Fyllas don't like me much, but I am among the best they can rely on about missions like that."
"So, Fauran trained you," Urnyras Jael said, still holding her weapons. "How come I have never heard of you?"
"Eh, well," he said. "You see, it was a while ago. Fauran himself didn't like me much either, I suppose-" He suddenly stopped talking, gestured Urnyras Jael to duck. Urnyras Jael did so immediately. He threw the torch away. They were in absolute darkness again.
They've heard slow, monotone steps walking. Then they realized it wasn't only one person, but a bunch of people. The steps sometimes sounded like as if they were approaching, but then they realized that it wasn't so. There was something ahead, unaware of their presence.
"We have to have a look," Alùn whispered. "I guess they are pirates. They have hideouts ahead."
Urnyras Jael whispered "Ùr", and the weakly gleaming green globe appeared again.
"Keep it low," warned Alùn.
He was pretty agile despite the fact that he was wearing a robe. As he moved, Urnyras Jael heard a clunking voice and she suspected that this man might have an armor or extra weapons under his robe.

...

Eventually, they arrived to the entrance of a big room, probably to gather up water and distribute to different channels out of the city since Urnyras Jael spotted some round pipelines on the walls. They did not enter, since Alùn pointed towards several tents and a campfire. There were people.
"Pirates," Alùn said. "These men work as mercenaries for the rebellion. They are enemy."
"Mercenaries?" Urnyras Jael asked, rather surprised. "How come they were convinced to work for a rebellion trying to seperate Kith'lath, do they plan to establish a pirate kingdom?"
"I do not possess that much information," he said. "Maybe we can go down there and keep one of them alive to inquire."
Urnyras Jael nodded, and they entered the room and started to approach towards the tents.

15 Ekim 2010 Cuma

the tale of urnyras jael, part XII: journey to kith'lath.


Several weeks after Ghaow's unforunate defeat, Pythe reached the outskirts of Southern Lyca'naus Mountains. According to the reports from southern regions, the Umbrysian army was indeed faster than they expected them to be - shortly after they vanquished everything in Akaramedia, they razed Alaìs and invaded Rykssander. Onthox armies, on the other hand, were about to make it to Orbh - and just as vandal as they used to be, destroying anything on their way.
Urnyras Jael recovered in two weeks. Using fyllian techniques of healing and a special care taken from eilan physicians, it wasn't much of a surprise for her. What made it somehow painful was that since the army was mobilized at all times, she didn't have much time to rest.
One day, Quarlyn popped up near her, after a repelled ambush attempt by a local sybillian tribe.
"I see you have recovered," he said pleasantly.
"More or less," she shrugged. "I was expecting it to be sooner. No complaints, though."
"Right, well..." he nodded. "Good to know. The King will be happy to know. He kept asking about you. You must've left a good impression on him."
"Being the only survivor of an entire division," she said dramatically. "Would make the most useless thug a hero. It's the direness of the situation, not what or who I am."
"Don't be so harsh on yourself" said Quarlyn. "Anyway, I am here to deliver you this." He held an envelope towards Urnyras Jael.
"Unless you feel like going on a long land journey," he said as she took it, "Do not open it. It is sort of urgent though, so if you think it will take longer than two days, I will-"
"No problem," she said. "I will go wherever you want me to go."
"Very well," Quarlyn smiled in approval. "We will settle the army for a rest in about four to five hours. Meet me at the headquarters tent."
"Consider it done," said Urnyras Jael.

...

Shortly after Quarlyn left, Urnyras Jael broke the seal of the envelope (with her name written on it) and stared at the folded parchment for a brief moment. 'Travel,' she thought. 'Maybe to the south. To north. In any case I want to go away.'
She slowly unfolded the letter, and started to read it slowly:


"To whom it may concern,

Regarding the latest reports from Kith'lath:
Due to a possible civil war to arise at the realms of Kith'lath, N'yaian Forces under command of me, Krischnokh Ilinarth, the Bannerlord of N'ya, have been relocated. However, the opposition was, in comparison to what the intelligence services expected, much more overwhelming. As these reports have reached the mobilized Royal Army, His Majesty decided to call upon the aid of Wundhian allies. His Majesty's requests of military aid from the Queendom of Wundh has been answered, and Her Majesty Gallanae-mylen Myllande the Second of Wundh has landed on Kith'lath, immediately engaging a maritime battle with the Opposition.

In search of the mastermind of such rebellion, Wundhian intelligence have spotted several possibilities. In their latest regular report, keeping the names strictly confidential, they have requested a skilled assassin to act according to the orders given at the expedition base in Kith'lath for further administrative matters, code number 34J.

Therefore,
N'yaian Expedition in Kith'lath humbly requests the relocation of a N'yaian Intelligence Corps member to Kith'lath as soon as possible, if possible at all. Being at your disposal, more than one assassin would be appreciated.

Your prompt response will be of the best, with current situations at hand.

Best of regards, may the Twin Serpents prevail,

Krischnokh Brauch Ilinarth
Bannerlord of N'ya City."

She folded the parchment rather mechanically. 'Kith'lath? Rebellion? Why would everyone be so discreet about it, that I have never head of it? Wundhian allies? Those enourmous, female warriors? Oh joy,' she thought, with a dramatic, slight smile on her face. 'Going to be a nice journey, I feel.'

...

After the army settled for a couple of hours of rest, Urnyras Jael made her appearance at the Headquarters Tent, being addressed by the King and Quarlyn.
"It's rather chaotic, up there," Quarlyn rubbed his chin. "Wundhian Queen puts her utmost efforts, and somehow managed to land her armies in Calua several weeks before. I suppose they have invaded the city. The Opposition fights a guerilla-war - I am sure they are not more than one fifth of the Wundhian army, in fact. That turns out to be a battle of wits, we have to use our cards properly. Brute methods, relying on the advantage in numbers should not blind us."
"N'yaian forces are quite few, I have to admit," said the King, shortly after approving Quarlyn with his head. "But they know Northern Echiott more than anyone, including remote parts of it such as Kith'lath. They act as navigators for the Wundhian allies. Gallanae-mylen is reputed to be a tactical genius, and we have to rely on her judgement in that matter. This was desperate, you see. I thought Kith'lath would immediately manage to gather an army, set up an alliance with Umbrys and Dytheria and make a third battlefront in Kith'lath. That would be catastrophic. We are already overwhelmed. That civil war, or this aggression in Kith'lath has to end. It can be considered premature yet, so if we smash the head of it, the rest will just shake and die. That is what you are asked to do. Change the fate of this rebellion and give the rest of Solia a relief - including Wundhian allies and N'yaian Expedition."
"What you ask of me, my King," said Urnyras Jael, apparently seeking a confirmation. "Is to kill the leader of the rebellion?"
"Exactly," Pythe nodded. "Maybe you can capture him alive, and he can be judged and punished according to Solian Law."
"That will be my priority," said Urnyras Jael. "I desire not to kill anyone else, in fact. But if I have to, I will do what has to be done, no doubt."
"When can you leave?" asked Quarlyn.
"Immediately, I suppose," shrugged Urnyras Jael. "I will recover before I reach Calua anyway. I can afford a horseback ride if I am supplied well enough for the journey."
"Very well, that is perfect," nodded Quarlyn. "You leave tonight. Try not to mention this to anyone. I want you to disappear."
Urnyras Jael nodded.

...

She gathered her belongings together in no time, she slowly walked towards the stable. One of the squires, an eilan kid at his eight at most, was bringing a brown mustang with him, also was slowly dragging the supplies for the journey behind him, nervously saluting Urnyras Jael. She carrassed the squier's hair before she grabbed the supplies and loaded it on the horse gently, patting the horse's neck afterwards.
"What's her name?" she asked to the squier.
"Bavien," the squire replied. "Belonged to a fallen knight of Lyrant. One of the best, m'lady."
"Seems like it," smiled Urnyras Jael. "Strong. Noble. Cold-blooded as well. These are good traits for a horse like this."
"We are good friends with Bavien," he said nervously. "Please take good care of her m'lady, so I can see her again."
"Worry not, my young friend," Urnyras Jael looked at the squire. "No horse will die on my watch."

...

After getting the ultimate briefing from Quarlyn, Urnyras Jael left like the wind herself, riding north.
"Wundhian women," she said to Bavien. "They say they are more brute than Wultan kheron. Stronger than enaer. More aggressive than the siblion. What do you think awaits me, Bavien? I wonder if it is even possible to work with them. Psh, I'm glad Krischnokh is there. Eoria might be there too, maybe, who knows? My sweet Eoria, how I missed her!"
Bavien was silent and smooth, just like her rider. She was dashing through the night, fixated on her destination and riding towards it with an invincible resolve. Under a red sky, her eyes were glowing with pride.
As she rode further north, Urnyras Jael realized this mustang was much much more noble than she actually looked.
She felt lucky to have such a companion by her side, a companion who knows what it means to lose someone you dearly care about. To lose a comrade.
"Fanrach," she said towards the night. "Fanrach, you are missed dearly."
Bavien made a sound, and it pretty much sounded like an approval in the most ironic way possible.

7 Ekim 2010 Perşembe

yağmur altında monolog.

Herkes, yani hemen hemen herkes - yağmur yağdıktan sonra toprağın nasıl koktuğunu iyi bilir. Yağmur başlı başına ferahlatıcı bir olgudur, hele ki biraz ormanlık, yeşillikli bir yerde iseniz mükemmel bir koku yayılır toprağın suyla buluşmasından dakikalar sonra.
Doğanın süslü püslü, insan yapımı parfümlere hiç ihtiyacı olmadığının en mükemmel kanıtıdır toprak kokusu. Yağmurdan sonraki toprağın kokusu.

Her varlık - canlı ya da cansız olması dikkate alınmaksızın bir sona tabidir. Bu canlılar için dinamik bir süreçtir, sirküler ya da doğrusal giden bir çok yolun bileşkesidir ve bu bileşkenin kendisi de doğrusaldır; başlar ve biter. Tekrarlar da sona erer o noktadan sonra. Yağmur da, tıpkı insan hayatında tecrübe edilen can sıkıcı şeylerin zaman içerisinde farklı yöntemlerle dışarı atılması ve bünyenin yenilenmesi gibidir. Yağmur, doğa için sirküler bir yoldur. Bu yüzden benim kafamda yağmura yapışmış sosyal metafor, insanın kendi kendisini yenilemesidir. Islak bir demokrasi gibi yani.

Yaşadığınız yerin yakınlarında bir park ya da yeşillik bir alan varsa, çok cazip bir önerim olacak. Havalar soğudu malum, sıkı giyinin üstünüzü ve yanınıza bir şemsiye alarak buraya gidin. Yağmur yağarken tabii ki. Emin olun pek insan olmaz yağmurlu havalarda böyle yerlerde. Yağmur yağarken doğa yalnızdır genelde. Doğanın yalnızlığına ortak olun - onun yalnızlığını azaltmak için değil, yapamazsınız zaten; ama en azından kendi bencilliğinizi biraz olsun toprağa def edebilmek adına yapın bunu.

Sonra, nispeten daha az ıslak bir yer bulun ve oturun. Düşünün sonra. Hayatınızı, hayatınızda esas aldığınız prensipleri gözden geçirin. Tanımlamalarınız güncel mi, bunu kontrol edin. Geçmiş nedir? Gelecek nedir? Şu anki zaman benim için ne ifade ediyor? Başkasının elini tutmamdan daha farklı mıdır o kişiyle sevişmem, geçmiş açısından? İz nedir? Nasıl bırakılır, hangi izler geçmez? Niye yaşıyorum, ne yapmak istiyorum? Geçmiş ne kadar önemli, geleceğimi nasıl etkiler? Bugün ne hissediyorum? Hissetmek ne demek bir kere? Düşünün. Hissedin yağmuru. O kadar derin düşünün ki, içinizde çakan bir şimşek ayıltsın sizi yoğun transınızdan.

İçinizde bir sıkkınlık oluşursa da bu his sizi rahatsız etmesin. Unutmayın ki yağmurun güzelliği, kül rengi gök yüzünden düşmesinde gizlidir. Bu değil mi zaten mesele, sıkkınlık değil mi akıtmaya çalıştığınız şey - hissedin ki yok olsun. Hissetmediğiniz şey, siz onu hissedene kadar yok olmaz. Zira ortada yok olması gereken bir şey yoktur o zaman.

Yağmuru hissedin.

2 Ekim 2010 Cumartesi

the man who smiles.

It was not a big room. Many would consider it a cell. One, small, rectangular window above. The sun never shined inside. He was a tiny man, too tiny to even take a brief look out of the window. All he knew that this hazy, gray wallpaper was the sky. And the sun never shined.
He kneeled. 'I could kill myself,' he was thinking, 'If I was to see that bright light they promised us before death. If only I was sure.'
He was a tiny man. Thin, cheerful, calm and content. He never had much problems. He never had been in a fight. He was very lucky, some thought. As if there was a guardian angel looking over him.
He smiled to himself. It wasn't much of a problem. Even if he was too tiny to see the daylight, it existed. Knowing it was a relief. He was relieved. He was smiling. He still could.
"Hello," said a soft voice.
"Hello," he replied, as if expecting it. "How are you on this cloudy day? I suppose it might rain."
"Well, it does," said the soft voice. "You don't know what rain looks like. You don't even know how the sun shines."
"No, no," he laughed. "I don't. But you know, it's not much of a problem. I know it's there."
"How," the voice asked. "Can you be happy?"
"Why not?" he asked. "Why not be happy? Why be sad?"
"Because you are not free," the voice said. "The darkness you are building up inside will overwhelm you."
"It won't," he shook his head. "I am a strong man, do not be fooled by my looks. I am a very strong man."
"Strong?" the voice asked with a sarcastic tone. "This is what you call strong? You smile, your ignorance is cheerful. You do not know what it means to cry. This is a dark cell you live in, and yet you can be happy?"
"My world," he said, smiling. "Is this dark cell. And the outer world makes me happy as long as I do not face it. I am inside. Actually, they are inside. Locked in, left out; all the same. They don't know my world, I don't know theirs. But their world, its existence makes me happy. Do my little cell make them happy?"
"Because your world is built on this dark misery you call a life," the voice said angrily. "You can't die avoiding, ignoring."
He laughed.
"I think I should. Sometimes I see animals they call a bird. They fly over here. It is sad. I don't want sad."
"You will die without feeling sadness, sorrow?" the voice asked.
"Why feel it if it is sorrowful?"
"That's a part of life."
"Not mine, no."

Eventually, they say, they found the man who smiles dead in his cell, drowned in his tears.